I found him! All he needs is me, and I am sooo all! This one has now been published several times and I am reminded each time I see it that dreams can become reality!

"uncontrolled thoughts" so very true. I comment on my own work in reflection. Self hatred, confustion, destruction, addiction. I made that change, I dumped all addiction, clean and sober for over two years now. Still random in my mind but no longer clouded with destructive addiction. What a grim reminder of where I used to be.

Its been nearly 5 years since I wrote this. If you take a moment to read my latest submission you'll find my attitude has changed dramatically. Thank god and the few who have really loved me!

How very true, I have since added new footsteps.

Green eyes, envious hearts.
Its going pretty good sorta. As good as it can for me.

Tag! Desired effect. Its like looking in the eyes of someone you love so much it aches inside. And you feel like drowning in it. Like your dizzy with desire.

Thanks for the vote of confidence, I only have fleeting moments of self hatred. Maybe its hormones maybe to much whisky sometimes. I find that writing about it helps to relieve the stress and I usualy feel much better. Kinda like lancing the wound to let the poison spill out so that it heals faster.