Escape is an Unaffordable luxury

Marred flesh makes the pain more bareable I stare back at pain in contempt for myself Always knowing that I am the true villain I am an endless path to corruption What good is there in a quick end It can't ever be that easy Where is the healing if I make it hurt It all runs together no place for sanity The anger seeths in the back of my mind Telling me of a greater danger to come The desire vindictive, some day my downfall Where to go when the pain is too great Can't escape there's no one to understand My life couldn't mean anything more Than just a meaningless void of hate There's the answer, oh how selfish would it be It sits there looking at me I can't control this urge to end it My mind realing with torment The sickening hunger sweeps over me Congruous thought no longer an option The chill of death whispering in my ear Oh unhappy fate collect me end it now I look upon me in disgust I this harmful paracite I do no good while sitting this close to the edge Maybe it's just time to take that last step I know I have the guts to get that far If I can smile one more time that would be enough If I can laugh again that would be enough If I can watch the rising sun that would be enough Yet none of it seems possible So when do I say good bye Is a posthumous state too late I can't say that I feel fine Stop lying and know that this is the time for redemption To end it all and know that it is the right thing