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Won’t Somebody Be My Friend (Prose Poem) by amanda_dcosta
I am alone , from far off lands I’ve walked the streets of old. I have no roof to call my own, I live out in the cold. When I was young I’d scamper ‘bout with mum and dad and sis, from place to place we’d travel on I knew no life but this. We’d go from door to door in search of food, and clothes and drink; some gave us these though not enough in sickness we did sink. Till finally, I was alone, death took us all but me. How cruel life’s face shone that day and it still seems to be. The life I lived, I shudder to think I’ve passed from year to year, with no hopes, no hugs, no love but only tears and fear. People turn and laugh at me and with their tongue abuse “Why don’t you earn your livelihood and make your self some use?” No one would offer me a job though they still thought I should. To them I was untouchable and of course, up to no good. I’ve tried my hand at shoe shine and selling papers in the street. But all that I remember is the scene of passing feet -2- And thus I lived from day to day moving about was life. Till in a land I know not which I found myself a wife. Together, somewhere, we lived sometime I had a home at last. The two of us, we made a team and time passed very fast. Fate seemed to have a hold on me as it, my wife, did take. I could not understand my plight nor meaning of life make. Into deeper despair I sank, and into sickness too. Lord, how I survived to this day, Is absurd although it’s true! I’m eighty-seven years old now. My feet and joints ache. I’ve almost lost my eye sight and my back does seem to break. I’ve lived a hard and lonely life I’ve lived off wastes and crumbs, I’ve lived trough rain and sunshine, I’ve lived in dirty slums. And all I’ve asked these many years is whether He’s above and whether He’s the One called ‘just’ and whether He is love. I do not seem to understand What life is all about. At times I’d want my life to end But then at times hope sprouts. -3- And so I live my last few days It seems to me like this, to share the story of my life and what this big world gives. I hope that my life story will inspire hearts of stone to feel the needs of others especially of those alone. I have no home or fortune I know not what is fame and when I leave this hard world back no one will know my name. Yet, there is hope that someday I will certainly find true love and joy and happiness from what I leave behind.

Up the ladder: Altitude
Down the ladder: Somber Like My Pain

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Arithmetic Mean: 4.8
Weighted score: 4.9761596
Overall Rank: 8375
Posted: June 2, 2006 5:40 AM PDT; Last modified: June 2, 2006 5:40 AM PDT
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[4] Caducus @ 86.141.200.125 | 2-Jun-06/6:18 AM | Reply
Few problems in this one are it's too self pitying which shrouds any chance of empathy.

Death's face could be elaborated on, its the one bit that interested me.

Needs to be shorter and more impacting.
[n/a] amanda_dcosta @ 202.164.142.153 > Caducus | 3-Jun-06/10:29 AM | Reply
Cadacus, this is the pitiful story of a 'beggarman' I came across way back in 2001. To some extent it's true. And I must say it's supposed to convey his state of mind, that of a depressed, self-pitying mind. Infact, what has been his inspiration other than the life of hunger, drudgery and lonliness?
[7] Ranger @ 62.252.32.15 | 2-Jun-06/11:36 AM | Reply
Wow, that was a lengthy read. I like the fundamental setup of the piece but you lose the rhythm in places and it needs to be solid throughout, because if it does, the swift flow of it will make the poem feel less epic to the reader. Stanza 1 was the best; you stuck close to the way in which an old man would tell his tales there. In stanzas 2 and 3 it gets quite abstract - talking about feelings, beliefs etc. - whereas someone talking about their life would be more likely to use events to convey emotions.
There are some lines/passages in here which are very forced; these really ought to be worked out - if you're telling a tale, keep the sentence structure pretty much identical to how it would be if you were writing this as a chunk of prose.
I'll let somebody else take over here...
[n/a] amanda_dcosta @ 202.164.142.153 > Ranger | 3-Jun-06/10:31 AM | Reply
Thanks Ranger. I must agree that it's a bit lengthy, but I wanted to put in all the details of the story. May be a few edits could portray it better.
[5] lmp @ 141.154.134.3 | 2-Jun-06/3:40 PM | Reply
i have to agree with Cadacus on this one. as i read the last few stanzas, i felt little pity. after all, what *did* you leave behind? in fact, other than getting married and having family as a child, what did you do for other people at all? what ways did you make anyone's life better on this earth? the story seems to keep asking for handouts, at first for basic food shelter and clothing, then for employment, and then for unconditional friendship.

the story is anything but inspiring. there is nothing that tells how you overcame adversity, how you persevered when times were tough, just that you did, somehow. also the part about just "getting a wife" seems a bit too glossed over. she just felt bad for you and married you and took you into her life?

i appreciate what you are trying to do here, but it lacks substance, soul, and compassion of its own. it comes across as only a self-pitying plea.
[n/a] amanda_dcosta @ 202.164.142.153 > lmp | 3-Jun-06/10:40 AM | Reply
Imp, every life has it's share of self-pitying plea. I presume that if your life were the same as his, you too would be singing the same song. Only your way of singing it would probably be with the bottle.... one for the road.... one to drown your sorrows, etc.Thank God for small mercies. The story he related is not because he has no whereto turn to, or nothing else to do, but it's related so that you will feel the needs of others, especially of those alone. Not having material wealth is one thing, but having a feeling of lonliness with no one to share your suffering is an agony in itself.

You ask, what 'did' he leave behind? I tell you he left us an awareness that there are people who need people like you and me to take note of them, not for our full pockets, but perhaps a look, a word of cheer, a smile.
[5] lmp @ 141.154.134.3 > amanda_dcosta | 9-Jun-06/9:50 AM | Reply
interesting response. for the record, i guess my "bottles" would be soda or seltzer, but more likely cups of coffee. (i don't partake of alcohol, if that was your implication.) as an aside, i think it not very civil of you to suggest that i would be come a drunken sot; you really know nothing of me and my life not to mention my spiritual fortitude in the face of adversity.

the other interesting part of your response is that i do, in fact, the very thing you suggest. i do acknowledge folks "on the street". i do not offer words of cheer; those sentiments are usually the last thing a person on the skids wants to hear; it comes off callous on the cheermaker's part. instead, if i don't merely catch their eye and nod in acknowledgement, i listen to their plea (or more often their con line) and reply simply, "i cannot help you". The meaning behind my words is that the best person to help them is themselves, especially so the further down they have fallen. it is a credo i live by myself, and i have accepted very little help getting to where i am, and what help i have received has almost always been repaid as best as i am able. i do not believe in handouts.

all that being said, the intent of my original comment was not as much to do with the subject or even the content, but more in the way in which you have presented it. if, as you have said in the response above, you are relating this tale so that readers will feel the needs of others, perhaps you could make more of a point addressing those who do not feel your subject's needs. perhaps write about those who do not take notice. it starts to remind me of the song by the Pet Shop Boys, "the Theatre". Not much in the way of peotry, but:
http://www.lyricsdepot.com/pet-shop-boys/the-theatre.html

in parting, i would like to point out another line in your comment above.
"Not having material wealth is one thing, but having a feeling of lon[e]liness with no one to share your suffering is an agony in itself."
Basically, you are sayiong that misery loves company. I always found that to be a selfish sentiment to harbor. if i am miserable why would i want anyone else to suffer the same? just so they can feel my pain? to what end? so they will help me? PAH!
[n/a] amanda_dcosta @ 202.164.142.153 > lmp | 9-Jun-06/9:56 PM | Reply
Thank you Imp for your response..... Was wondering if you had read it at all.

As for the bottle....I was merely suggesting a possibility based on the normal trend that's present in today's world. If it has offended you, then.... I'm sorry. But no harm meant.

And about taking note of people... well, that's a very hard thing to do. There was a time when I used to meet a poor old woman who used to sit by the church gate and beg. I was broke then, and I used to tell her that I couldn't help her by giving her anything. And she used to get offended. Ans slowly I began to talk to her frequently. The best part was that I couldn't understand her language (we have umpteen languages in India) and she couldn't understand mine. It was more like sign language from my part. But this bent up old lady would wait for me to come there freuently and start pouring out all that she kept in her heart to share with me. She used to be so ecstatic by the end of each session that I got used to enjoying it too. And finally if I'd give her any money she'd take and give it to another beggarwoman near by.

This used to confuse me quite a lot, and in time I began to realize that it was friendship she sought. This is just an example of what I've been trying to explain. Feel the needs of others. It's not that you don't have anything to give.

And for them to help themselves.... if we who are educated and have an advantage start in life can't make ends meet, how can they who are deprived of almost everything in life except their life help themselves. Think about it.
[5] lmp @ 141.154.134.3 > amanda_dcosta | 13-Jun-06/6:49 AM | Reply
no offense taken for the bottle, now that you have clarified. :)

again i will say that i think that your sentiment is dead on; it is the way that you have portrayed the story that brings down your very good idea. this can be reworked or even re-written in
an entirely new work. i don't mean to discourage my any means. in fact, a poem about your expereinces with the old woman at the church would be an excellent piece to read. and you could still make the point that you are making in this piece, but from another angle; it may even be more powerful.

regarding the "help yourself"... it is not simply education or inherent opportunity that i believe in. it is spirit. those who are not the entitled, not the brightest, not the physically strong, can still persevere as long as they have the spirit to do so. one whose spirit has been quashed has but two options: give up or persevere. if one is to be beaten, defying defeat is the most triumphant thing a being can do. at least i think so.
[8] ALChemy @ 71.75.176.68 | 6-Jun-06/1:29 PM | Reply
The cadence of your rhyme is too upbeat for a somber poem. One half expects a punchline at the end, which could actually work. See:

Then an angel came to apologize
-"We just noticed your last name's Bitler."-
-"Turns out all this terrible time
we thought we were screwing with Hitler."
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