Free verse № 118864
Birth
Born screaming into smiles
then wiped clean, sex checked
and separated
from bloodied purity
Into filth,
by latex executioners
aluminium murder.
Put me back.
For this man is stillborn.
Who sleeps fetal,
in a cold cotton womb
and awakes dying
next to a sewed vagina.
Like the Bible
I am edited to mistruths
by an empress
who varnishes nails red
lashing at my back
as I fill the rubber chalice
of denied seed.
Our last supper.
I watched her devour my hopes,
Kissed her as she tied me in ropes
below a bleeding sky
where I hung
with the orb of ovulated yolk.
Pulled from the cunt of life
to the arms of death,
concentrated breathing
slowly leaving,
reborn a Father
to the baby you denied me.
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An Explanation on the last stanza for milefromnowhere.
Pulled from the cunt of life
to the arms of death,
concentrated breathing
slowly leaving,
reborn a Father
to the baby you denied me.
Last stanza is about giving up/taking ones life. It ends pretty much as it begins because in the first stanza he is born and in the last he dies BUT death in a sense IS a new beginning, this is highlighted in the line 'pulled from the cunt of life' this represents life is/does not have the purity of a womb but instead its something repugnant such as c*. The fact that in line 2 i say 'to the arms of death' normally in birth you go to the arms of a midwife but here its the gentle arms of death/peace - peace is what we are when we are fetuses.
In short from the cold cunt of life to the warm embracing arms of death.
'Concentrated breathing' this is what women do as they give birth and its what the character is doing again YES in death but to him its like a rebirth, an escape, not anything sad anymore as the pain will soon be over.
The last 3 lines are key as these explain his reason for wanting to die. His hopes of becoming a father have been scuppered by his lover because she doesnt want children and he loves her but cannot choose a life with love childless or become re-born through dying. As his life feels worthless he decides to end it.
I tried to make the end not so much depressing but hopeful.
PS: Last stanza is sublime, I just love it. "pulled from the cunt of life..." Fucking brilliant.
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