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exist (Free verse) by the indign
take this dream away from me; i'll cry and perhaps it will sting. i fell through an already broken glass window filled with remnant shards of dicontent and hate. disappoinment burning through this ever deepening wound, cutting deeply, oh so deeply. time itself will never mend, but nor will we, these secrets restraining us from ourselves. sleep inside deep within i hold i keep i lie to even myself. i keep holding on, holding out, holding for what i know i can never hold. despite my whoring ambitions, my indign, wasted feats, i'll hold to them with dying breath 'til one day you recognize me, realize that i do breathe. i feel i think i know; just as well as you know that i existed once; perhaps i will again. 'til then i'll only fight myself; my hell becomes thine own.

Down the ladder: Gaia and Man

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Arithmetic Mean: 7.4
Weighted score: 5.286087
Overall Rank: 3757
Posted: April 26, 2004 8:42 PM PDT; Last modified: April 26, 2004 8:42 PM PDT
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[10] wFraser Allonby Q.C.w @ 195.157.153.253 | 27-Apr-04/1:15 AM | Reply
And it came to pass after this, that Absalom the son of David had a fair sister, whose name was Tamar; and Amnon the son of David loved her.

And Amnon was so vexed, that he fell sick for his sister Tamar; for she was a virgin; and Amnon thought it hard for him to do anything to her.

But Amnon had a friend, whose name was Jonadab, the son of Shimeah David's brother: and Jonadab was a very subtle man.

And he said unto him, Why art thou, being the king's son, lean from day to day? wilt thou not tell me? And Amnon said unto him, I love Tamar, my brother Absalom's sister.

And Jonadab said unto him, Lay thee down on thy bed, and make thyself sick: and when thy father cometh to see thee, say unto him, I pray thee, let my sister Tamar come, and give me meat, and dress the meat in my sight, that I may see it, and eat it at her hand.

So Amnon lay down, and made himself sick: and when the king was come to see him, Amnon said unto the king, I pray thee, let Tamar my sister come, and make me a couple of cakes in my sight, that I may eat at her hand.

Then David sent home to Tamar, saying, Go now to thy brother Amnon's house, and dress him meat.

So Tamar went to her brother Amnon's house; and he was laid down. And she took flour, and kneaded it, and made cakes in his sight, and did bake the cakes.

And she took a pan, and poured them out before him; but he refused to eat. And Amnon said, Have out all men from me. And they went out every man from him.

And Amnon said unto Tamar, Bring the meat into the chamber, that I may eat of thine hand. And Tamar took the cakes which she had made, and brought them into the chamber to Amnon her brother.

And when she had brought them unto him to eat, he took hold of her, and said unto her, Come lie with me, my sister.

And she answered him, Nay, my brother, do not force me; for no such thing ought to be done in Israel: do not thou this folly.

And I, whither shall I cause my shame to go? and as for thee, thou shalt be as one of the fools in Israel. Now therefore, I pray thee, speak unto the king; for he will not withhold me from thee.

Howbeit he would not hearken unto her voice: but, being stronger than she, forced her, and lay with her.
Then Amnon hated her exceedingly; so that the hatred wherewith he hated her was greater than the love wherewith he had loved her. And Amnon said unto her, Arise, be gone.

And she said unto him, There is no cause: this evil in sending me away is greater than the other that thou didst unto me. But he would not hearken unto her.

Then he called his servant that ministered unto him, and said, Put now this woman out from me, and bolt the door after her.

And she had a garment of divers colours upon her: for with such robes were the king's daughters that were virgins apparelled. Then his servant brought her out, and bolted the door after her.

And Tamar put ashes on her head, and rent her garment of divers colours that was on her, and laid her hand on her head, and went on crying.

And Absalom her brother said unto her, Hath Amnon thy brother been with thee? but hold now thy peace, my sister: he is thy brother; regard not this thing. So Tamar remained desolate in her brother Absalom's house.

But when king David heard of all these things, he was very wroth.

And Absalom spake unto his brother Amnon neither good nor bad: for Absalom hated Amnon, because he had forced his sister Tamar.

2 Samuel 13:1 – 13:22
[10] Stephen Robins @ 213.146.148.199 | 27-Apr-04/6:21 AM | Reply
I grew so bored reading this that I started to pick my nose, only to realise I had a malignant cancer in my sinuses. I have subsequently had them removed and now walk around with a face like a bowling ball.

Thanks!

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[8] Shuushin @ 207.5.211.177 | 27-Apr-04/6:55 PM | Reply
This would be a nice piece with the self-pity dialed back maybe one notch.

Quite a bit of good in it.
[8] Shuushin @ 207.5.211.177 | 27-Apr-04/7:22 PM | Reply
just so you know I looked it up:

in·dign - adj.

Archaic. Unworthy.
Obsolete. Shameful; disgraceful.
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