waiting in my own way

i walk the hallways of my dreams to find you hiding behind every corner i never figure out if youre just really quick or if there are many you's because i wake up and go through another day to fall asleep to dreams where i face many doors and chose one to find you behind it i never figure out if you're behind every door or if i just happen to open the right one every time because i wake up to monday morning thinking four more only four more and that night i try to push you out of my dreams slamming doors when your face appears and running from your smile as you step out from staircases and elevators and janitor's closets with doors i never saw your pursuit is relentless and I awake in a sweat thinking that ill just stay awake until you return ill just stay awake so that illusions of you cant haunt me cant tempt me cant fake me into happiness cheat me of my smiles ill just stay awake and greet you with open arms and dark circles under my eyes no i cant do that i cant do that i need to be happy when you come happy when youre real and so I sleep tentatively tip toeing around my dreams peeking in to see if youre there and then I drop in, following your confused shadows around the hallways staying behind you waiting in my own way