i want to know how the japanese type

i don't want to see brokeback mountain i want to ignore the hype wrestle with my emotions off that girl i like or liked, who knows she is waiting around the bend with a piece of paper and a pen with her name written fine and her number's underlined but i never reach that street where the two of us could meet because i have lost the directions which complicates the situation i hear her name echo around in my head but my brain can't listen to what is being said