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Im sorry (Free verse) by lonelyguy
"I'm Sorry"-Darren Elliott
I'm sorry I ever thought about you
all those nights and the days I wanted you
never wanted to be you're bf just wanted to say hi
but now to this ill be saying my goodbye
to crushes and dreams that I might have had
but now that I think of them they make me all sad
that things could come to this long extent
that the thing I might have said wouldn't have meant that much
to you im a stalker by internet online
ive been sending you things you've been always denying
just wanted a girl to show my feelings for
but now all has come and im now out the door
in some of my dreams its been the other way 'round
you've been chasing me trying to make it obsound
you were the only girl I have been thinking about,
but now this, now its not my route.
as I sit here not having a gf around
this must not be me I am college bound
to get an education and figure out why
the things I could do with you, no I guess ill cry
when I first saw you back in the 1st year or 2
high school to me was very very new
I didn't have many friends when I started that year
so I needed someone to talk to and maybe have a beer
(only 15 or 16)
but no one would take my request for a friend (gf)
im still sitting here aint I? and I will till the end
of all the things that I have in my life
that I could have taken away
I decided to leave it
and I might as well stay
I remember a time in my 1st year or so,
when you grr'd at me
after making a laugh,
about something in a chocolate bunny I think
well may it wasn't now let me just think,
yes it was a chocolate bunny alright
but it wasn't me
that made it so funny, no fight, it was you.....
you were the one that I always saw
I wanted to say hi but it was always "nah"
so I got a friend to say hi for me
they said something that made you see
how I felt about you...
on my trips down the hall
I would always stare
at the person I wanted,
well I wasn't aware
that she hated me
oh yea im sure she did
one night I found her name on one of those lists
for those messengers you might get as a gift called ICQ
ya ICQ, those were the days
I was thinkin of the many ways
to talk to you
I had never really thought about what could happen
if I found her name and then id be laughin
id be able to talk to the girl of my dreams
now it wouldn't really be the girl of my dreams
cause im sure if I met her in person she'd scream...at me
because im after her, not to attack her or rape her
ya no one wants that
I could help her and id be there in 1 minute flat
but she left me a message ill always remember
it was sometime in the middle of December, I think
she had said if I contact her any more times
I wouldn't be able to make this rhyme,
no I wouldn't be shot id just be thrown in jail
and id get the jail notice delivered in the mail
and that'd be all of me, you'd never see me again,
because a charge of harassment is not a good friend
I could use some real time in jail
but if i dont make it i might as well fail
id tell them never to give mail to me with a name
I don't want to mention
and see the letter without contention of thought
that its you sending me something
its a gold diamond ring that says will you marry me
written al over it, but ill deny because that's what you did to me
so I tell other people if they have a crush
just to cover you're fears and all that such
and to say hi at some point in you're career
never do it while yore on you're 4th or 5th beer
but never leave it to the last day of school
cause you'll be a fool, like me
never able to see
what I had done
now all I have is none
of your caring or even you're sharing
of life, never wanted a wife
till now, but im not having a cow
cause I never had the chance to
ask you to dance
but I should have
now who's getting the last laugh??
but now that i have let my feelings on the loose
i think ill become one of those recluses
that never wants to se the light of day
im happy now and ill keep it that way
and now that i see that im a ***kin ***hole
shoulda asked you when i had the time
so that im sad and maybe a little sore
i cant take this feelin no more
ive been trying to forget about you
but every week or so i have a dream about you
i dont want it
so now im haunted
by your lovely image
they all look like lines of scrimmage
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