What happened to us? I use to want nothing more than to share time with you spend the night ,be held in your arms I use to love your smile and your quirky laugh I use to love your calm nature and sense of family I use to see you as strong and protective gentle and sweet,open and generous I use to love you with all I had inside me and wish you understood how deep it was I use to love how you looked in my eyes and made me feel innocent and beautiful I use to love leaving you love notes to remind you when I wasn’t there for the next morning but time went on and I changed I became frustrated at your lack of goals I became tormented that my love was too deep or not deep enough I became hurt that you didn’t want to commit I became pained that you did not understand what you meant to me, and never would I ached in sorrow that “US” would never be what I spent all these years dreaming of so I stopped trying, and now, here you were ready to wed and give my dreams the reality I’d longed for and I was so desperate, not to give up all those years I made you my dream come true, my everything and we went on to create a family, and home but old hurt became bitterness, and I feel alone You stopped wanting my happiness and became self absorbed and selfish, unfeeling and cold it’s been 6 years and I am so hollow and lonely tears are like a constant river deep in my heart and I can’t stop it from flowing We haven’t shared covers in over a year and you just seem happy to have them all to yourself We share a beautiful child and it pains me he never sees the love, that we once shared I’ve lost my passion, and my will to try anymore You never consider my feelings or how your actions impact them, and my ability to go on pretending that it’ll get better....someday when you want to share a bed with me when I might mean that much to you and stop doing drugs, and using them as though they’re your salvation from the misery of being with me and you’ll take care of yourself and care how you look for me like you did when we were young and you’ll want to be romantic and passionate, just to see me smile like I haven’t done, for so long I forget what it’s like when it’s not just a mask to disguise the river still flowing, deep in my heart that’s destroying me and the person I once use to be when we first met.