Control

Driving down a road Going 40 miles an hour Being told your nothing,worthless Is he going to run into that tree? Or will he break in time Should i try to jump from the moving car Or wait it out He's sorry Should i forgive Being held down made to watch him slit his chest As the blood drips down Staining the clothes i have on Will he come home drunk When will he pass out That's the only time i have to think Go to the store hurry up your being timed Better hope no friends call He'll just listen on the other line So many of us deal with this from day to day Why do we stay? Afraid to lose everything we have Or just out of habit Maybe out of fear Fear of what may come next The tears come every night No one can help until I learn to help myself No one deserves to be treated this way I need to break these strings and get away Sometimes easier said then done Would be so much easier to just grab a bottle Try to drink away the pain That only brings more tears then what it's worth How do woman end up with men that act this way It's nothing we did Don't make me feel small All i ever asked is to be loved Is that too much to ask for? Alwayz being acused And thankfully never abused Mentally i'm warped Just another form to be in control Your told you'll never amount to nothing You start to believe It could be worse I could have a gun held against my head Held under the water in the tub Why do so many women put up with this fucking bullshit? Why Oh why me Does god hate me that much That he has made my life a living hell As he's at work you begin to pack his bags Put them outside And hope he just goes That's all that can be done