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Control (Free verse) by MakenzieNy
Driving down a road
Going 40 miles an hour
Being told your nothing,worthless
Is he going to run into that tree?
Or will he break in time
Should i try to jump from the moving car
Or wait it out
He's sorry
Should i forgive
Being held down made to watch him slit his chest
As the blood drips down
Staining the clothes i have on
Will he come home drunk
When will he pass out
That's the only time i have to think
Go to the store hurry up your being timed
Better hope no friends call
He'll just listen on the other line
So many of us deal with this from day to day
Why do we stay?
Afraid to lose everything we have
Or just out of habit
Maybe out of fear
Fear of what may come next
The tears come every night
No one can help until I learn to help myself
No one deserves to be treated this way
I need to break these strings and get away
Sometimes easier said then done
Would be so much easier to just grab a bottle
Try to drink away the pain
That only brings more tears then what it's worth
How do woman end up with men that act this way
It's nothing we did
Don't make me feel small
All i ever asked is to be loved
Is that too much to ask for?
Alwayz being acused
And thankfully never abused
Mentally i'm warped
Just another form to be in control
Your told you'll never amount to nothing
You start to believe
It could be worse
I could have a gun held against my head
Held under the water in the tub
Why do so many women put up with this fucking bullshit?
Why Oh why me
Does god hate me that much
That he has made my life a living hell
As he's at work you begin to pack his bags
Put them outside
And hope he just goes
That's all that can be done
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