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1a. Awaken (Free verse) by A db C
Tired is the feeling
aching through limbs
lack energy repeated
as a voice inside me
Thoughts began,
Slurred off like voices-
distant echoes.
Barely visible black dots
Became patches in vision
Becoming darkness
Descends
Dominated the brain
Descends vision
Finally dulls and awakens the head.
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(Partial Rewrite of 1. The Day After Next)
I felt tired today;
These limbs ache and lack energy I repeated to myself.
Thoughts started but then slurred like far off voices,
Whilst barely visible black dots became patches,
Became a darkness that dominated my vision and finally dulled my head.
At this moment, as per usual, I was supposed to be receiving some kind
of spiritual message: my life was supposed to flash before my eyes.
Minute by minute, hour by hour, still shots of memory imposed itself
with burning intensity before melting down like old projector film and
spattering into my brain. Pulling out the negatives I watched reel upon
reel of footage that jerked from frame to frame displaying pictures of
aging mills and coal mines, exhaust fumes marked cracked boarded windows
and stained dusty brickwork. There were noises like children crying and
the screeching of worn brakes, the rattle of old machines, winding
creaking sounds regularly spaced as if someone here were turning the
handle of a rusted old mangle. Looking around there were no signs of
life, just a slightly pretentious parody of the day that I was about to
receive.
Although sulfur and ash from long dead fires clogged the airways and
stained the skin, my mind was numb and seemingly void of all that could
even want to care. Drifting through memories that I barely recognized
and had no desire to recollect, coming across that piece of me that
cared, that teardrop, he fell upon all my abandoned intents, all that I
wished to share.
Everywhere I looked this barbed bead of frost confronted me,
I shied away, turned my back and covered my eyes,
Shaking, scraping this thing from my dry and cracked face.
Re-hydrating ducts, glands and dried out waterways day by day
This process began awakening limbs and organs
Who had never wanted to feel this pain again.
Over the weeks I began clutching my ticking head,
Desperately hoping it would finally explode.
It had started, and I was now fit to beg for heaven's help.
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