Envision the most radiant women you've ever seen and smash the image on a television screen imagine her smiling and holding you tight now take that image and the wonderful sight of the beauty and perfection she has portrayed and fall to your knees as you are betrayed Masquerade yourself from the tears you will weep as you lie awake unable to sleep Recalling the moments that you once shared remember the bruises you once bared the pain that ate at your insides the stinging sensation that filled your eyes as you sat crying for hours by her side waiting for the agony to subside the year that passed has been an illusion it took me awhile to come to this conclusion buying her flowers, sending her gifts following the laws on her endless lists rule upon rule of ridiculous obligations but i had to live up to her expectations Fall to the ground and beg forgiveness and claim the Almighty as your witness Misguide your heart in the wrong direction build a wall for emotional protection her ghostly presence will always exist the lingering absence of the lips that you have kissed what i must realize is that this is the end the love thati feel is only pretend i must find what is real a love that defines the ideal Unrequited it seems to me now i live in misery