Where were you when the dam held tight? Tears bashing like water against its walls. Did you come to my rescue when I banished the light? Where I prepared a safe haven from the world. Did you look for me when I hid from the crowds? Even friends were strangers to me. Did you hold my hand when I needed strength? To overcome the terror I felt. Did you listen to the chaos I heard in my mind? Every bad word and deed remembered. Did you hear of the hate that I turned on myself? Blood replacing feelings unfelt. Did you help me when I needed to find myself? When I had lost all that once I had been. Did you rejoice when I took my first steps into life? Catching me when backwards I slipped. Where were you in my journey through madness, To hold back pain, anger and sorrow. I needed your love and support through those bad years, But you weren’t there when I needed you.