older sister

you are spossed to be a good iffulance on me. after all you are the older one but the thing is your not. drinking and smoking infront of a 12 year old girl is not good iffulance. at age 7 ur not spossed to be taking care of your drunk sister. ur not spossed to throw knifes at my head, no your spossed to be nice and take me places and make me feel like my life is good! ur spossed to be my best friend. well your not u ended up to be soemone i hate and dont wanan turn out to be like. But i guess in the end u did help me. u helped me not to be a drunky and not to smoke and you tought me that life sucks and the only people u can really trust are ur friends.. maybe that is a big sisters job. i guess no one will ever know.