I have known happiness without measure I have walked along the bottom of despair And I have you to thank for both There is a strange appeal to this opera of obscenities Oddly intimate at times no matter how distant I am Yet at others miles away while I'm sitting front row Nothing makes me smile like the taste of sunshine Pouring over me from memories we share Those days spent basking in the joy of being together Nothing makes me cry like the smell of the night sky Beckoning me to a bed we no longer share Cold and empty, lacking the warmth of your smile I've danced with devils upon a shallow grave Only to help saints dig back up the dying I've burned every bridge I've come across in one day Only to spend the next few weeks rebuilding everything I won't deny my confusion because there is no explanation You can't deny that even you don't understand because you don't Cigarette burns line my insides as well as my skin I needed something to remind me that pain is temporay I needed to see that I'd heal and know I'd be alright I'm not better, I'm not alright, but I'm getting by Trying not to lose sight of twilight Dawn or Dusk, it doesn't matter, either way I know I'm not okay right now, but I'll get better One way or another, with or without you And I have you to thank for that.