Sometimes I sit and wonder, Why now did you have to go? Was it something I did to push you away? I cry myself to sleep hoping for your return, and wake up praying to see your face in front of me. I look around and still you are nowhere to be found. They tell me it was time for you to go, that eventually I will understand it all. They say a part of you will always be with me. Ya' know..I still play the games we used to play, but for some reason they are not as fun anymore. This morning I looked for you again, but all I saw was my new reflection in the mirror. Written on my 18th birthday about myself.