I was unknowingly raped back then, And I would savor the moment it occurred, On your lips I would kiss other men, Love isn’t blind but its victims are blurred. After your deceit I despised you, Yet you were what I became, Through others I was inside you, Raping you, And each time I came. In my void I was fulfilled, I'd nothing pure to give a skilled liar, choosing to lure the pure, to make them feel secure, and promise everything Then slam the door. I fail to recognize myself anymore, And who I became by design. So many lies lay siege to my core, And pain gets worse through time, It does not heal the wounds, It just inflicts relentlessly, Emotions sleep in disturbed tombs, Tombs that lay empty. After you destroyed me, I craved to be in control, I gave my body but never my soul, And now I am consumed, By loneliness and guilt, And love cannot be exhumed, It just lays buried in scarlet silk. written: 27sep1992