Fighting these feelings Fighting my pride Fighting the faith That let me slide Looking for answers Hoping for hope Searching for something That's not a joke Since trivial seems The simplest path The one those around me Lock onto, grasp With desperate smiles, And the promise held dear That nobody made them, And yet they will swear That this is their due, This is their dream, This sweetened vision Of futures they've seen And I am alone And I am without I am within My own fertile doubts Fighting these feelings Fighting my pride Fighting the faith That I let slide for caducus, the dreamer