there are many mountains in my mind begging to be climbed each requiring a careful and studied approach. scientist, lover, artist: each a separate ascent -- perseverance and wit and logic and leaps of fancy through dangerous terrain; upon each path i need ( a rest a niche a view ) that both justifies the climb so far and reminds me of the top; gathering strength for the climbs to come. at any moment there is the fear of the height the winds the drop the ground; the fear of falling, the fear of stopping, the fear of climbing on.