I've got to find the cycle here that maximizes pleasure-- for some that means enduring pain but I've pain enough already; I've got equations in my head of what is good and what is bad and how to weigh them, one and all to find the blessed life. I've got to find the cycle that means I've lived my life the better-- the time to diet, the time to splurge, the time to drink, the time to purge; when to addict and when to cut, how to know the good from rut-- and so I sit and contemplate to differentiate what varies, where to say enough's enough and when to say it's not quite snuff; give me coffee, give me beer, and help me calculate what I hold dear.