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Friends Diminished (Free verse) by shwenatjadeflower
I remember last year
Jenn and I were a pair.
We regarded highschool with fear.
But her mommy said she couldnt hang out
with me any more
something about
me being dangerous...my most dangerous action is ignoring my chore
she said i was turning out like my mother
what's wrong with that?
If I turn out to be half the woman she is I will be proud
of myself
she said something about my brother
doing his drugs
and that everyone around me does drugs
so i will too
everyone around her
does it too
they are just shy
and better hiders
about 40% of the people that are at our school
do weed or crack or cocaine
she is just a fool
she didn't see the pain
on my face
as she said
it was my fate
that i would turn out to be like them
the 40%
that get stoned
my family and friends, are mine to judge
i am not asking her to accept them...
only me
but obviously she never cared
i wasn't her best friend
if i was, she would not have left me standing here,
bawling my fucking eyeballs out because i lost my best friend
of five years
because i went to her house one day without asking
her mommy thinks im a bad girl...
she listens to her mommy
like a good girl...
i can't believe she would throw away five years of friendship because my
family does drugs...
they always have...
i will not do drugs...
i will not get hi...
the only drugs ive ever done are sugar,
caffeine, alcohol (wine),
and once when i was 6 a puff off of a cigarette
and that is because the man i was living with at the time (my uncle)
forced me and i thought i was gonna die.
i will not do drugs...
i am not dangerous...
i can't believe she could think that...
after five years as my best friend
she should know me better than that
i am offered drugs everyday but i say "no way
and don't you ever dare ask me again"...
to throw it all away because her mommy said so*shakes head*
but she's a 'good little girl'
and i guess that means do everything you are told, no questions asked
like a fucking zombie from hell
she has been brainwashed
i swear...
she has always been the 'good girl' though...
and dammit i loved her like i will never love anyone else
she was my best friend...*bawls uncontrollably*
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