You struggle within reaching out for something you thought was real, a meaning of life. Beliveing your inner self to understand differents to keep youself form going insane. And so you seal your owen coffin hopeing your inner self would never hear the discouraging lies, and betrayal. And so you pray the lord your soul to keep for if you ever betrayal youself.For ever trusting only youself and who you are.Never opening yourself to anyone no matter how close they are.