For the second time I feel that pain the loss but somehow joy when you are aware of the presence of another who clicks and you are just happy he's alive the pain it comes from knowing that your lives will touch so briefly for you are not the one who holds that spark for him to gravitate to we touch each other as humans re-inventing wheels of concepts and thoughts and desires and plans I will change the world and i will not give up and i will never sell out but we all go through phases and we all inspire each other and some keep going and some just watch and i keep going while others watch and i try to inspire but i also keep quiet and he keeps going so much faster i guess parental sympathetic older wit and charm, devilish eyes entice me and inspire and fuel me with emotion and i run away scared but inspired all the same