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The Other Cancer (Other) by lexxie100
Hi, my name is Emma
You probably donât notice me
Iâm that girl in your class
The one you say is freaky?
Iâm a quiet girl
But I always have the right answer
I miss a lot of school
Idiots call it cancer
It may be a disease
But itâs one of another kind
It doesnât affect just my body
But also my mind
They say there are programs
And places I can go
But I donât want to talk about it
I donât want it to show
But people seem to notice
When I donât have new clothes
Or when I leave with the counselor
I feel like everyone knows
They say that it affects many
Like one in five or something
And that itâs a cycle
A never-ending ring
My friends canât come over
Their parents all frown
Why does everyone know?
How is it all over town?
So my mom drinks
Whatâs the big deal?
I still have basic things
Almost every meal
The cops have only shown up
Like four or five times?
Is that enough to make me crazy?
To start talking in rhymes
My family says it's a problem
Domestic violence and all
But it never hurts too much
Kinda like a bad fall
Sometimes I blame me
And try to do more
But if chores and school arenât enough
And weâre still poor?
How do I fix it?
How do I go on?
I already take care of me
Am I to be her pawn?
Since the time I was six
I could cook on the stove
But her to bed when she passed out
Took her keys when she drove
I could dress myself
Wake up on my own
But myself to bed
It was like living alone
I knew my full address
And number of social security
I would poor out the drinks
To keep a level of purity
But sheâd just go out
And spend the money for rent
Then weâd get thrown out
To Sarasota we went
Thatâs when life almost got better
She did good for awhile
Then she met this guy
Iâd forever hate the name Kyle
He would hurt her
And screams I would hear
I wished it would go away
I hated the beer
You see, it messed up her judgment
And messed up her head
I knew if she didnât stop
Sheâd wind up dead
One night it was really bad
She went into intensive care
Among others she had a broken wrist
And surprising news to share
There would be a new member
Joining my house
A little girl with two parents
But a mother and no spouse
So youâd think the guy would stop
After all it was his child
But the beatings just got worse
A restraining order was filed
My mom didnât keep the girl
Her name wouldâve been Hope
I went to live with my dad
New problems with which to cope
When she lost me
Her life went downhill from there
Depression sank in
Drinking was her only care
One night she just left
Grabbed her keys and went
But alcohol was in her system
To jail sheâd soon be sent
I didnât see her much after that
Between visits and phone calls
It became too disturbing
To talk between walls
I remember the last time I saw her
I told her what Iâd learned in school
That alcohol affects everyone around it
And that it is not cool
I spoke to her about life
And everything that went wrong
Everything had a substance involved
A common note in a song
To there was this gateway drug
A young girl tried when she was thirteen
It made her feel older
Like she was a queen
At the age of thirty-seven
She would die from its abuse
Her liver couldnât take it anymore
There was no longer an excuse
She would never get better
Or join a support group
She would leave her family
Start a financial loop
So much for alcoholics anonymous
So much for control
After so much abuse
The effects took toll
Hi, my name is Emma
You probably donât notice me
But if Iâm kind of quiet
The reasonâs not hard to see
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