Daybreak arrives and I am awake to witness it. The solstice is soon and the time is inconvenient. Because this is the darkest time to be awake and the fear is at its strongest I have to find a mental activity to distract me from the light. Oddly this is supplied by watching the sun begin to move and for the trees to become lit. So by seeing the garden lighten outside the bedroom I am able to stave off the fear of the moment caused by the feeling of being here at this time in the light.