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Looking Over the Blueprints (Free verse) by somemorepoetry
My brother is an architect.
He builds skyscrapers and
Parking decks in the middle of
Big cities with lots of steel.
He brings over the blueprints
Sometimes, and I study them
Meticulously. It's not that I think
I'll find something, a mistake he missed
Or an off-kilter calculation,
It's just that it feels nice
Seeing the sharp, smooth lines
That we live in. Everything's crisp
White on blue with protractors and
Compasses and light bulbs burning
Deep into the night. The smell
Of scalded coffee. The sound
Of an eraser hustling.
That's my brother, awake again. His wife's
Already in bed, but my brother's
Running a marathon in his head.
Of course, he isn't famous, not yet.
He hasn't built the first two hundred
Story building or something all glass,
But I'm sure he's working on it.
How could he live with
Those baggy eyes, the constant yawning
For something pedestrian?
He's coming home for Christmas;
Susan's staying there. She said
She needs to assess the situation.
Will she spend all night at her desk
Jotting furious notes, sweating
From the strain of remembering
Inconveniences, inconsistencies, and
Infidelities?
Yeah, he had a thing with
This woman in Jakarta,
It was just a fling. God knows,
He didn't think it would end up being
A thousand sheets of litigation and
Money raked up for a lawyer by the bushel.
He was probably just lonely, watching
Infomercials because his brain's saying
"Build! Build! Build!"
At three in the morning. He told me once
That life is just night, just a
Lonely plane ride west when you never
Ever catch the sun playing
By itself on the other side of
The globe. I didn't know, I nodded
But I've never been to Jakarta
Or Singapore or any of those
Other cities where they eat rice
All day long.
I bet he was thinking about his wife
The whole time. He was thinking
Of every line, every angle, every beam and bolt
That's been built up and how the
Hell he'll ever come close to it
With just a pencil and some paper.
He said he's seen
A few of his buildings being
Demolished. Wrecking balls and
Explosive charges plowing down
All the bricks he laid. There's a
Little sadness he says, but he loves
The sounds -- Crunchs and booms
Wavering so low in his ears.
The first time I saw one
Of his buildings in Baltimore I thought
There was no way to make it all stand.
Just a little at a time, he said.
The thing takes care of
Itself really if you take care
Of the details. Details require precision,
Dedication. Light bulbs blowing at
Sunrise and radios catching the static
That most people miss at the very
Start of the morning.
I like drawing too,
But I've never been too good at
Straight lines. I keep my mouth shut
And my eyes low when we're both
Looking over the blueprints. I'm
Not much for advice. I asked him
Once what they do if they finish but
They find a bolt missing or a fractured
Beam on floor fifty-nine. Do they
Go in there and precisely fix it or do they
Bring it to the ground and
Start all over again?
He seemed to not know
The answer to the question. He was
Playing with his car keys. "Well,
These things take time."
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