I feel - cheated I almost had it the chance to tell you everything to let it all out all these pains I have been carrying around in my chest for what seems like forever. But as always, luck was on my side. The problem we had tonight in this house was resolved. And no one will ever know the troubles we went through, least of all you. I feel like if only something would go wrong just once, then everything would be all right. Contradictory as that is I am sure it is true. I am hoping that someday something will be bad enough to warrant a mention however casual. You will raise your eyebrow. And somebody, maybe even you will comment saying that it isn't good what happened. Whoever you are that I am writing this too, because I honestly don't know; I hope you never read this. I dont want you, whoever you are to hear me sounding so desperate. I am a happy person. No, I want you to overhear a small piece of conversation, that I am having someday. And those few words, will clue you into everything. Whoever you are, perhaps a guardian angel, perhaps a person to save me, perhaps a nothing of nothing lost in the internet or on my screen. Don't read this. What I am writing - ignore this. I have one request. Next time I am talking to you or around you. Listen. Please, hear what I am saying even if I am not saying it.