Lost identity, mysterious vibes.... uncertainty is !! . No one to blame but those feelings that hide themselves for months on end, nothing to understand except that adoration for those feelings now are very few and those feelings come from you. Done to the heart, the thought of color shining into a black and white trial of getting over “The One” is an idealistic desire that would make life uncomplicated. Communication is limited, easily all thoughts scatter and play a game of hide & seek, making all connection break. Once more an opportunity unfolds and behold you stand in presence. Ignore all the on and off emotions, overlook the knowledge in holding. Betrayed and stabbed what is the difference between, ignore all the waiting in vain for pay back is pain. If only realization would of been apparent at the time of previous infidelity, maybe it all wouldn’t be going down like this. The cause of all frustration is blindfolded to the condition of mystified addiction, his role of chess master over the defensive pawn is forever his. No matter where the road leads, that left over feeling will remain plain and will keep you locked in its powerful embrace till the time of true love over takes its supremacy in your soul. There's a time when fighting that resilient driving force in your soul becomes unbearable, leaving you morally and emotionally paralyzed. That time will only construct the depth in your spirit that has been waiting to unfold, help you make it through the battle within. The jury confronts one thing, the thought of living without that special one. That person who makes all things complete, the one who you’ll regret never being able to see what its like to be their incomparable. The jury is you. But soon when the clock strikes the hour of second noon all peaceful recognition will fade and you’ll see that the power he holds in your life only ruins you, places you in a hell of disappointment and justified revulsion of the being within. Shackled for years, held back by the belief of perfection in one being, Ha! Holding someone on such a high pedestal, dropping their potential and your worth, what a drastic plunge to behold. Such nonsense from your own being, its a decay of the inner woman to have had that mental state. Steer a new course, heading down the way to a new future, dedicated to yourself. Pleasing your inner wants and not the hindered emotional desires, dictated by someone else. Taking the wheel its all a new outreach to the one who never wanted much of anything but to be loved. Now the goal to live by the standards of a new freedom are the driving force of a life now led.