My Hart

Not again, this aganizing pain. Let it not be. This pain deep in my hart. Why does this happen when I look in his eyes. Does he not notice, does he not care? I question myself so many times. I fear when I tell him he won't feel the same and turn away. I can't let that happen. Night and day I dream of him, holding me tight and saying those words I want to hear, but then I'm back to where I started, back in reality and not my fantacy world. This is it, this is the day I say it to your face. I'm walking in the room, I see him. I'm walking closer closer. My hart pounding with rage. If I turn now I could get away, NO I must say it. Oh I feel like dieing. I'm screaming inside. I stand in front of him, staring into his eyes. Not again, not again this pain so bad I could cry. I can't even talk. He's smiling. Don't smile, not yet. I put my hand in his. He doesn't let go. Here it comes. "I love you", oh my god I said it. He hasn't let go. He doesn't stop smiling..... Then I'm back and the day starts again.