Shy

It's hard for me to conceal these images in my mind. It's hard to understand what they might actually find. I suppose I should call it upon my age. But it feels so right, suppresses my rage. I think that my time is wasted. That I should just give up all hope. What reason is there to live? So I think about you. Standing there, staring off into the distance. What are you thinking? How hard is it to find? I know its not actually you that I'm obsessed with. It's all that you remind. Remind me why I need to keep living. Why there is more than today. The wounds of our life eventually heal. The tides of depression will sway. Stand here before me please. Tell me it will be all right. Take all the pain away. At least for tonight. It feels so special. The stars shine forth so bright. I wont care about all my problems. At least for tonight. Tonight I finally understand. What makes life come true. The mistakes and past decisions. What is that worth to undo? Undo the love that I feel here. Tear it away because of me. I'll never be that selfish. I'm not so blind that I can't see. And yet I know this isn't reality. It's all within my mind. Searching for some hope. Grasping for all that I can find. You are just the child. Shyly sitting beside me. And yet you're so much more. The image that refines me. The hope for a lost soul Even so innocently so It doesn't matter what you really are. For only I need to know.