Piercing thoughts embrace me. Flickering realities deny me. Lovely, Wonderful, Elation, Strangulation- Sitting down to stand up falling. Remnants of hopes and dreams- Spotted analytical thoughts. Hopeful fits of hysteria- Distorted memories. Drowning in the air of humanity- Burning in the coldness of love. Dying by day, Living by night, Awakening to a world full of hypocrisy. The hate filled love of 'fearful people'; The tender scorn of the norm; The unrelenting comfort of nonconformity; Different, Disturbing, Fulfilling, Familiar. Needing the world to rebuke me, Wanting the power to fail. Motionless marathons of thinking Revealing words cast in stone, "Thou shalt do as thou desire, Above all else yourself you shall admire." Simple equations of life perplex me. Rebellion falls upon deaf eyes. Locked and chained to community, Taking the path that's trampled and worn. Only to find a shortcut to a living death's door. Take my hand won't you- Feast on my inadequacies, Drink from the well of my empty heart. I am death alive. I am the rest you desire. I am the living sleep you cannot die without. You touch me in the night, Without me even near. You strangle me with hands that devour the world. Let me show you the way to death alive! I' ve been there once, I will return again. If only to awake from this eternal sleep- Rested and reborn, Baptized in darkness, Resurrected in the shroud of knowledge, And worshipped by the thin veil of understanding.