I stared out into the sun wishing the pain would run run away has if on fire.z So I would not have to regret my heart’s desire. The desire to hold you in my arms but that won’t ever happen again thanks to a loaded firearm. These trinkets of metal that kill people learn to use them with so much skill, while I weep in the dark because you won’t ever come back to me. I lost you on my birthday. What should have been a day of joy turned to sorrow. I cried and screamed and begged GOD please bring you back to me. But my prayers were not answered and I was left alone. I miss you now even until this day always looking at the front door expecting you to walk through. So I can ask: “Honey how was your day?” But life is so fragile and precious and you: don’t have yours anymore. I can’t feel you next to me. I can’t hear your voice in my ear. I can’t see your wonderful face. Life is so fragile and precious and without you my life is over.