Dovina1 Aug 2004

Conversation with deity is much like yelling at yourself in your head. Maybe it’s the same thing. In the first line, the believer asks who the great mind of god helps, implying that he has developed doubts and thinks there may not be such a mind. The answer, which I show as God’s words, is my experience that such help comes in the present, inside us, to comfort the believer and not so much in the physical world as he wants to believe. Once he comes to this attitude, he becomes bewildered and asks why, or “Why am I not able to deal with this?” And then the guilt falls on him for not having enough faith, which he interprets as god saying, “Whose fault is that?” After some groping, the believer decides that nothing can be relied upon. To which god answers, yes, but you cannot do without me because I made you with a need which only I can fill. Once the believer understands this he obtains a peace, which is beyond understanding, or without understanding or logic. I may not have earned more than an 8, but that’s what I was groping with. Thanks.