horus821 Aug 2003

Sometimes, I think back on when I lost it all, again, for the 100th time, and I laugh hysterically until I pop out from behind it all, and say "surprise" with a mindset for murder.

Sorry, I've been on a big murder kick lately. The doctor in my mind says it's because I realized for the first time on an extremely subconscious level that I am in control of nothing. Because, outwardly I'm so good at being a leader and controling everything in beatifully harmonious simplicity...I've been having a hard time swallowing the truth about the universe, but now I can read minds and see the future, so... that all balanced out, I guess. Anyway, I'm currently building the perfect killer, and he's a very handsome & handy young man. My sweet baby Frankenstein. You do of course realize that because I know you, I will be even harder on your poetry, because I want your poetry to look like you inside and out. Perfect.