I feel such violence that I’ve never felt before. Against people whom have done wrong to me, And those who broke my heart. I feel such desire now, that I’ve never experienced before. Wanting of people who I cannot have, Thrills that shouldn’t be had, but wanted. I feel such pain, pain that I never thought possible. The pain for the wrong I’ve done, For cheating myself out of what I could have had. I feel such emotion, I cry a lot now. Because of the words I have held back, The unspoken words that could have changed everything. All I want is what I can’t have, And what I can’t have I dream about. It’s so wrong, I know, which makes me what it even more. Using people I love, that I don’t even know if I do. I can’t figure it out, the pain inside me, screams. But I can’t talk to anyone, because then everyone would know. Everyone would know my faults, my dreams, things that shouldn’t be known. If I let them out, so many people would be crushed. So I hold them all in, hoping one day… They will all go away.