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Your True War Story (Free verse) by zodiac
When that evil motherfucker Joe Cool
Finally got it in the Ashua Valley â a green
Gassy stomach wound that made him mad, then scared, then gentle
While we watched â we shrugged and added a rule
To our already-big catalog of rules: donât be mean;
Donât be evil, or youâll get it like Joe Cool -
You need rules like that. Only Green Billy cried. But Billy
Was new in country, and cried often.
Then we found Billy splayed out by the assassin like an Oriental
Jesus on two bamboo poles one rainy, chilly
Morning in June. We made more rules: donât be soft, and
Donât be evil, or youâll get it. But really
It wasnât until Silent John the Texan, black and
Bigger-than-life, caught a stray shot that whined
Suddenly out of a bright August day, took most of his dental
Work skittering off into the bracken,
We began to see the pattern: the strong silent kind,
The mean one, the greenhorn â all the characters. Then back in
Camp we drew into ourselves, in the spaces
Of sentient quiet that inhabit the nighttime jungle â
Frightened of distinction â when kids at home, a sentimental
Love for German opera, for all we knew, were basis
Enough for the karma to get you. The next bungle
Was sensitive Lieutenant Caffrey; then the racist
Sergeant hit a trip-wire mine. And when Danny
Castanetti from Brooklyn got it, we frightened
Ourselves thinking mere ethnicity was enough for the regimental
Curse â until, pulling his throat-slit, whitened
Corpse from the sleeping bag, we saw he had on girlsâ panties â
Even pantyhose. We laughed, but it was uncanny
How it could root you out. Me â Iâd sympathize
With the twitchy rat-faced kid who bit it
The next week, the eternally-optimistic Tennesseean on rental
From headquarters, the couple of guys
Who were always stoned â all died. But I knew itâd
Not get me. The young writer, of course, never dies...
- He wrote that one night, years after,
Shivering in a cold house in the suburbs under
The weight of several beers, the tvâs canned laughter
Rattling through the empty rooms, and entirely alone â
Only stopping when he got to the end to wonder
If it was true â and if he wouldnât rather
Have died there, fully-rounded, than coming home,
Without character enough to kill. Or maybe there was not
Any kind of slantwise logic to it except what you brought
There and clung to when everyone died, and kept in stories known
And retold so long, you finally forgot
They maybe werenât really your own.
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