furrowed my brow, hunched my shoulders and saw you, very possibly, you saw me as well, as I walked past the taverna. later, as I inched towards the door searching, your face smiled at mine. caught in the headlights of your eyes my eyes widened and I backed away into the darkness, with my "friend." later, while you were onstage singing and playing your first band gig? I think you saw me pull up outside. you turned around and looked out at me at the end of a song, the next one I knew by heart, I sang along, sitting outside in my car, engine off, windows down my friend smoking, trying to understand. all I know is I gave you too much and never really drew the line with you. I just wanted to be with you, forever I was always too available for you. but man, I loved to ride your longboard it was only a loan, and you had to go play your longboard and ride your guitar.