poetandknowit23 Jan 2003

The girls actually gave me that word. They said it. The money was for church programs that promoted....well. I wanted to put it in the first draft but did not know how. I told Z, she said it should go in and I struggled for a week to get it in there. I had it all over the place. I don't think it is sexual in the poem; it simply gives a bit more depth to what the girls are doing. In the physical world selling the wind chimes has to be for something. That would be there innocence, I guess. I think it relates to the narrarator and what he has ultimately turned away. His transition. It is weird, but the further a death moves into the past the more convoluted the images become when personalized. I can still put images of the physical event into a clear picture, but my grief is wrapped up in all sorts of mixed metaphors. Thanks for the read. I did not change the first line. But I changes the second!!