can't won't will not FUCK can't think the thought for the thought that is stuck in my head won't relent -- gods I'm spent. the will is a'twisting around my chest cavity stressing the gravity the forces of death life rebirth and the moment is paused. paaaaaaused... STOP! crystalline moment of nothing is done crystalline moment of mind that is numb, dumb, mute can't refute that nothing is changing but the time which is passing around me in waves splashing ashore; acid burning my skin, knocking for entrance knocking to KNOCK to WAKE the fuck up STOP staring stop stopping STOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOP! do the things that need doing, the lists that you've listed take them two fisted and slam the tasks back -- fill your belly on FILLING the rut: fuck this "can't". can?