ALChemy21 Feb 2006

Here's what I got. A man(perhaps an old man) decides to welcome back into his life the God that he once scorned and rejected for taking his lover(wife) away from him in the desperate hope that someday that God might reunite them.

Shoulder war: Chip on his shoulder maybe.
2nd stanza: He relizes he is bound to die.
3rd stanza: He embraces the idea of dying.
4th stanza: Getting older and closer to death.
5th and 6th stanzas: He reminisces about her and mourns her.
last stanza: he's preparing and about to die.

That's just my guess though.